Hey everybody, its been a while but I have a thought I would like to share… It may have a few grammatical errors but I wanted to share!
Thank you
Bob
Uncomfortable
I woke up this morning thinking about her smile. I grab a coffee and the paper and join her for a conversation in my dark lonely living room. She smiles, reaches across the table and grasps my hand. She tells me that I have changed. She speaks with confusion and an accusatory tone. She says “you have changed and I don’t like it one bit.”
This makes me realize, maybe I have changed. Maybe I have had a dramatic realization of who I really am and what I am doing. Maybe I have realized that I am not alone and that we all feel alone/ isolated/ angry/ trapped/ abandoned/ resentful/ lied to/ violated/ traumatized/ fractured… Maybe I have come to the prosperous realization that there is more to life than the monotony of your routine. There is more to life than being “comfortable.” However, it was only when that comfort was stripped from my life, leaving me naked and exposed, that I realized there is more to life than being comfortable. Being bold and brave when all you hear is silence can release so much more and be more rewarding.
In these past 2 weeks, I have experienced emotions that I didn’t even know I had. I met some people that I never thought I would get along with. I developed crushes, lost loved ones, gained a sense of community, and even got a tan. I have developed friendships that I hope will last an eternity.
I hope that I can constantly be challenged and taken out of my comfort zone. There are so many exciting people and experiences when we have no control and we trust that life will happen.
She tells me: “Everything will be okay, remember to use your heart. Remember to love. Somebody will love you as much as I did. Somebody will love you for who you really are.” I do not know exactly what she meant but I felt a sudden sense of comfort wrap around my body like a cloak. She made me remember how powerful love is. She made me remember when I felt love. As I stand in my living room, I have a sudden realization of what I have done wrong… I was comfortable with my life.